We have a date!! Thursday October 25th 2012 8:30 is our court date to finalize the adoption of the girls!! Praise God!! So excited!!

They say hindsight is 20/20

       I have been feeling very bad about something lately. And that is my lack of honest transparency that I really wanted to have on this blog. I wanted to be able to update friends and family on the process of the waiting and the time table and order of events, but more important I started this for people like me. People who were starting the process, or just looking into it, or right in the heat of battle. I wanted to give information, support and guidance. People who are looking for another person to get it. Someone anywhere, to just read it and think "wow they've been there too. " I looked and looked for someone else who blogged about foster adoption and couldn't find any. Not one. I found many on international adoption, and quite a few on domestic infant adoption, but not one other person who had gone through or was going through what I was. And I wanted to share my heart with people. But I got caught up in wondering what people I knew would think of me if I really told everyone what this has been like for us. It's not pretty. It is hard, so very, very hard. I am just now 10 months later coming out of the cloud and seeing the light at the end. So I will be writing a post soon, to all those who want to know and will not judge, about our past 10 1/2 months. If you read it please do so with an open mind, and know that it will be a very hard thing for me to be open about things that are hard to talk about. Trust me when I say, despite what you may "know", like with many things, until you've walked this you do not know what its like. I say that from someone who was very well prepared by our agency on what to expect, but walking through it has been a whole different story. And so you don't leave this post feeling like I'm getting down on people or have a "woe is me" attitude I'll end with this- It's been hard but even knowing what I do now,  I'd still do it.



P.S. I got a call from the courts today about processing our adoption application so we should have a date soon :)