Good meeting!

          Ok so judging by the amount of texts, phone calls, and FB messages I've got I'm sure there are a lot of you wondering how it went last night. It went very well. It was more of a disclosure meeting than I had originally thought, but it was good because we got a lot of information on the girls. I cannot share most of what we learned last night, nor will we share a lot of it once we are able. We think that a lot of it is personal to them and will be shared by them when/if they want to once they are older. So anyway I can't say much, but it went well and Josh and I are comfortable with everything we learned. We are excited and feel really good about it. Sounds like I may have my hands full though, they're both crawling and one of them is into everything! We didn't see a picture, which I'm kinda relieved about- I'm afraid if I did I'd feel bonded. Their social worker said that she just forgot it, but that they are adorable and we'd forget all the "difficult" things she told us if we saw them because they are so cute.
       They seem to be in an excellent foster home, we were told it's one of the best homes they have. Their foster mother is really willing to work a lot with the adoptive parents to get the transition smooth, that's a blessing. We were told she'd be happy to talk to us about anything we need if we were to proceed.
        We asked when placement would be we were told because of court dates it wouldn't be until September, but they wanted visitation with the twins and the family before then. I told Josh if we're picked, it'd be once a week until placement if they let us.
        So that's it. She is meeting with the other two families today and then will got back down and meet with another social worker and her Supervisor and they'll pick a family. I don't know when that'll be, hopefully soon, but I kinda doubt it.
         I am so thankful that so many of you were thinking of us and praying for us yesterday. It really means a lot to us that so many people are praying for us. Thank you all.

Monday is the day....

         The social worker for the twins comes Monday. Though wouldn't you know it, she's coming Monday night? I mean I've waited all month and still I'll have to wait through the whole day?! Oh well. I just hope that finnally having my husband home will be a good distraction.
          So I've been making sure the yard looks good, getting carpets clean and other long awaited cleaning. Also I'm doing A LOT of work in "the pink room". It has never felt right calling it the baby's room, or the nursery, so I just came up with the pink room. It is after all the only room in our house with any pink in it. See when we got finished with all our classes we decided that it would be better to move the boys into a room together before we brought a new child home so it wouldn't be too much change at one time for them. Kinda ease them into it like you would if mommy was pregnant. When we moved them I also thought it would be better to paint the other room so that it still didn't look like Nathan's room. To make sure they "got it" I guess. Anyway we've had the room painted since November and my mom came and did some murals (it's actually the picture to the right, top ----->) and I bought fabric to make curtains and all. Then we waited, so the room started to become a catch all. We wanted the social worker to know that we were ready and willing to take the girls soon, should that be her decision. So I have been finishing painting and sewing curtains, and re-painting our chair. It all looks nice. I still have a little bit of sewing to do tonight and then finishing details, which I may wait on so I can (hopefully) get some sleep tonight. I've been pretty busy these pass few weeks. I hope Josh likes all the work I've done.
         I am nervous about meeting with their social worker. Like I've said before I don't feel totally comfortable with new people, or in situations that I'm unfamiliar with. I am glad it's at our house. I hope that we can get across who we are, and what our family is like. I've been making a list of questions I'd like to ask and I'm starting to think of ways to tell her about us, our lives and our family. Pray for me please! I don't want to be anxious all day monday waiting and I want to be relaxed during the vivst, so she can get a good feel for who we are. The boys are excited. They both have been helping and watching me get ready and we've talked quite a bit about "the lady coming who is looking for a good family for the twins". They've asked a lot of questions and really good grown up ones too.
       So we'll see. Right now I have Josh coming home tomorrow to look forward to . So really much of my energy is focused on that. I would really just like to know if we'll be the parents to these twins or not. I know I'll be fine either way. God's got it all under control. I just have to remember to let go and let Him do His thing......