Here we go again

      Thank you to everyone how prayed for us last night/this morning. We have decided to submit our profile for the two sisters. We both woke up this morning feeling like we should start this, see what happens and what we can learn about the situation. So I called our social worker this morning and told her to submit it for us and she said she's hoping to hear from the social worker for the girls about the case for the 6 month old. So that's where we stand now. The waiting begins again.

Prayer request

Prayers needed tonight for us making a decision on whether to submit our profile on a sibling set of sisters. They are 2 years and 6 months. Because of different fathers the older has a hearing set to terminate parental right but the 6 month old doesn't, so it's a risky placement. That and the fact that we're kinda wondering if we're okay with having two. We need to decide tomorrow if we want to be considered. Thank you for praying with us.

God's plan- It's not us

        Today we got the news on the twins. The social workers have decided to go with another family. I do know that they are a family that the birth father attends church with, so it will probably be very good for them all. I think that God doesn't do anything by mistake and this must be the best for everyone. I am disappointed, I was really looking forward to the possibility of two little girls. We are thankful that we heard so quickly, we really thought it'd be longer for them to decide. It feels really good to know. There is a peace in knowing that is obviously not what God has for us. Knowing that this is not God's plan for us, really makes me all the more excited to see what he does have. This is something God is doing in our lives, and I want to be open and ready for whatever that is. It's not this. I do kinda feel like- okay what now? We don't have any other "leads", so it's almost like a let down from being excited about a possibility to nothing. Josh is good too, I'd say he was less invested, so he's not as disappointed as I am. But he's a guy. A little less emotional. So really- I'm good. Like I said I'm disappointed, but I know that God has something, I just need to focus on waiting for that. Thank you everyone for your prayers, I know that is is helping so much and it is such a HUGE comfort to me. Prayers that I would continue to feel peaceful about this would be wonderful. Thank you all.

Can I get a plan?

        Josh and I went out on a date for our anniversary the other night (11 years! WOW) and I noticed that while we weren't really talking about the kids (we were after all trying to enjoy a date) there was a phrase that kept coming up. Then I thought about it and I realized it's actually in almost every conversation we have right now. Seriously nearly every conversation has this phrase in it.  "If we get the twins". Not only is it on both our minds, but it's really hard to try to plan the next 2 months of our lives with out questioning what it will hold. So we're looking forward to hearing from the social worker....whenever that may be. Hopefully by the end of next week. And put at least that question to rest, and we won't have to start or end our conversations with it. And we can plan a little. Although it could bring more questions, like "When we go to see the twins", "Depending on when we get the twins" and "After the court date". So we're still living a big question right now. I think it's the season of our life we're in. At least I know there is a plan. " 'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord" (Jeremiah 29:11). I'm so glad. This time it's not my plan, it's His. I'm just enjoying the ride.