I'm so in love

So real quick, we me the girls today. They are adorable, beautiful, delightful, and I loved every minute. It was awesome. I got to hold them both and play, read books. I hated saying goodbye and would have stayed all day if I could. What's even better is I get to go see our big girl tomorrow. She's a doll, and I cannot wait. Then we'll go visit our baby sister Wednesday together. Back up there to see her Friday and then she's coming here to meet the boys all day Sunday. So busy week,  it'll be a while before I post again. She should be home with us in 2 weeks and the baby the week after. I'm so in love, God is awesome.

Our first visit scheduled!

          We are getting to go meet and visit the girls Monday! We will also be able to talk to their foster moms. And we will be working with them and the placement worker on making a transition plan and working out dates for that. The boys will not be going with us, it's best if we get to visit the first few times without them. But we will be able to take pictures of them to share with the boys. I will not be posting any here or on Facebook. We also will not be sharing names for awhile.
          I'm excited, I'm trying not to be too hopeful, we are strangers to them. I have a bunch of questions for the foster moms, as well as the placement worker. Please be praying that the girls (especially our 2 year old) would not be too overwhelmed, and we'd get a nice visit. The placement workers said they may want to place the 2 year old first, then the baby, but we'd much rather bring them home at the same time so please be praying that we along with the foster mom would be able to figure out what would be best for her.
         I am thankful for all the offers of help with clothing and toys we have gotten. Be sure that I will be taking those of you up on those offers!
        Thank you to all of you for support and prayers.

The new adventure begains.

          We will soon have two daughters joining our family!!! I am so excited, and so nervous! The meeting went really well today and we found out that services were terminated last week so there is already a hearing to terminate rights. We got all our questions answered and everything is more than I could have hoped for. We will be scheduling our first visit soon and making a transition plan on the girls coming to live with us. We are hoping that if everything goes smooth we will have our girls home by Thanksgiving.
           Thank you to everyone who prayed for us today, please continue to pray as we work on bringing our girls home. I am kinda in shock. Wow. Okay that's all I can form into sentences right now. I'll update again soon!

Meeting Monday!!

      I just talked with our social worker and we are meeting the girls' worker this Monday the 24th! God is so good, meeting on Monday is such an answer to prayer, this way Josh doesn't have to take an extra day off. Our social worker said I can bring more pictures of our family and our home, which I was going to anyway. And I confirmed again that they are just looking at us for a family.  If after the meeting we are still interested we can schedule a time to visit the girls. Also our social worker told us that sometimes they bring the girls so we might be able to see them Monday. Because it is a couple hour drive from our agency's office the worker has sometimes brought the kids to the disclosure meeting but we don't know if she will or not. So I'm excited that our meeting is Monday, although I feel like it might feel like it takes forever to get here!! I'm glad for my super busy week and weekend!

Somebody wants US!

           This is super exciting. For those of you who have read my posts, you may remember when I wrote about how children could be placed with us in this post; What is foster Adoption? . One of the ways being that a child's social worker would see our profile and call about us. Well yesterday that happened! They want us specifically to come and have a meeting about two little girls. The girls are sisters, 2 years old and 6 months old. They are healthy, and have no apparent delays. We got the call late last night from our social worker who wanted us to have an answer about if we are interested by this morning. It's a little stressful to have 12 hours to think about something that will change your life. But it actually was a quick decision for us. I called her and said yes we'd like to meet with the worker and have a disclosure meeting. So she will call the girls worker and see when she wants to meet. I'm really hoping it is this week, even though I do have a busy week. It would just be nice to have answers quickly. We are in awe that our profile was picked and we were called on. It's kinda nice to be wanted :). The legal side could be a hang up though, as the parents are contesting the termination of visitation. They have not been involved up to this point or even shown up for their evaluations to determine if they are fit to parent. So we need to find out when that court date is to hear that, and then after that they would set the date to terminate parental rights. So we are praying that God would be leading us in this, that it just wouldn't be us walking into something with just our emotions, and that we'd be open to whatever He's leading us to do. Thank you all who are encouraging us and praying for us. I will update you when I hear! Pretty exciting stuff around here!

Twins again, an "older" little girl, and other stuff

              I'm going to start with the "other stuff", then get to the tease on the girls. Things have been busy here. Not too much adoption action until this week, just other stuff. I've been super busy with both boys being in soccer and house projects. After not getting the twins I decided I need to re-paint a dresser and re-decorate my bedroom. It's what I do, it's called distraction. We have got a couple calls, nothing we had wanted to submit our profile for so I kept blog quite. I did last week get an e-mail that the two sisters I had last blogged about were placed with grandparents, against the recommendation of the county.  So I have I had been thinking about our process and doing a lot of praying. There were a few hard weeks. It was discouraging to get so close then not have much happen. That and there was the 1 year date of our starting the process, then the 10 month mark of waiting. So yes I was doing a lot of praying. And I didn't post that on here because I didn't want anyone feeling sorry for me, God and I just had things to talk about. And He did have a lot to say.  Like "quit being such a control freak, when you're telling my to have my way!" (Yes I really do feel like God talks to me like that. It's about the only way I really listen. Josh should try it too.) Wait you mean part of  me letting God do His thing is getting out of the way? Sometimes I would like God to just boss me around, at least then I'd feel like the control at least goes through me. But no He has been asking me to just get out of the way and watch Him work. Hard for me to not get the orders, just trust in Him. Have you ever felt like that? Like God was keeping you in the dark until the end? I'm kinda a nosy person, and I like to be in control of my stuff, so I don't do that well. I hope some day I will, because God keeps putting me here and I don't like it. A friend told me something great today that she heard at bible study- she said they were "encouraged to 'relinquish responsibility', because God has His plan and it's not our responsibility to do  anything but to listen for Him to speak." That was powerful for me to hear. Ok I think that's all the other stuff.
            So we got an e-mail this week about another set of twins. They are 2 1/2. They were born very premature and have a few medical issues because of it. Things they will most likely grow out of, but that we would have to deal with now. I saw pictures and they are so adorable. They have brown hair with soft curls. Adorable. We've submitted our profile for them. They already have a court date set to terminate parental rights. The birth mom is contesting, but that is not unusual. To be honest, I am hopeful about this. They are a good age for us, and I love the though of having sisters. I'm so glad my boys have each other, and I am so thankful for growing up with my sister. I'd love to get a call and go to a disclourse meeting to learn more about them and to get some questions answered.
          And today we got a call from our social worker about a 3 1/2 year old girl. I was told on the phone several times that she is very cute, but I haven't seen a picture. I was told there are no medical problems and the only behavioral problems are that she throws tantrums. But she hits and kicks and bites during them. Which really is not unusual for a child who has been in foster care. Their little lives have been turned upside down several times, it'd be hard for an adult to deal with. Also she was placed in her current home for concurrent placement, which usually is with a family member or friend and they move from foster care to adoption. But this family doesn't want to adopt her because she doesn't get a long with their younger daughter. Which is very sad and also makes me wonder how she is treated there. Is she treated like family, and shown the same love and attention? I didn't want someone so close to Nathan in age, and that and the tantrums worry me, but my heart goes out to her. I feel like she's not wanted in the place she has been, and kids pick up on that. I feel that God has been telling me to let go and trust the outcomes to Him. And that means letting go of what I think I what and letting him work. There is not a date yet set to terminate rights for her. Both parents were offered services and visitation and the father declined, but when the county went to request rights to be terminated he contested and now wants visits and such. The court date for that is at the end of the month. So we have submitted our profile for that too. I may see if we can stop at our agency's office Monday to look at her profile, and see her picture.
         So I guess you could say we have two irons in the fire. Whew long post today. As always prayers are appreciated. Thank you all.